You Are The Worst Mistake Made
How I sit and wish that I had the power over the situation
to direct your love to a right destination
Yes, came around and I saw he was the right person
I already had the fear to be in a love lock
But this time round I couldn’t ignore the knock
So strong breaking down the block
The hurting part is the knock left a crack
Which is just the beginning of the sorrows
How I loved that soul wishing he could even
treat me right for a second.
He came and ate the weak heart
Ran away after I thought he was serious
Love is not physical but I have physical discomfort
I can’t block the memories, can’t erase the love
The fact that I hate him hurts me
because it’s an evidence, a one trace of my love to him
I tried to do everything he loves but he didn’t care
for a second I thought it’s not what he loved
What he loves! I know
I wished to penetrate his heart, his brain to see
what to do
The exact thing he needed to give me what I wanted, I couldn’t
It hurts and it always hurts
I’ve not started explaining because I can’t hold the tears
I will be feeling much better right now if he had said no
No to everything
No to seeing me but I know it would’ve destroyed me
What’s the reason for being there for his benefit?
I always sit to think he could learn everything about me
about my love to him
A love that no one will ever give it to him, like I did
Maybe he didn’t need love
Then what else….. Money!!
I tried my best and he knew that
Suffocation is what I wish to him, sometimes
I need him to suffer like a refugee
Not that I like what refugees go through
but just for him to run back to me, to chase him away
I know it’s crazy, inhuman to have such thoughts
I’m not a bad person, I just need him to realize one thing
I’m giving it a day and I’ll be back again
